Dating boyfriend in college
It was probably in my mid-20s when that feeling of missing out peaked, but it still returns every once in a while.
I’ve brought it up with him actually, and even with his friends, numerous times — just checking to see if he feels the same way.
I talked to one woman who, at 29, hasn’t been with anyone but her high school sweetheart. He went to a local boy’s school, I went to a girl’s school and we had a few mutual friends.
I asked her to tell me what that’s been like — the good and the not-so-good. We started dating when we were 16 and did all the high school things together, like prom.
I’m not sure how he felt — I’ve never spoken to him about it — but we made it through somehow.
I’ll be sitting at dinner hearing all their crazy stories and have absolutely nothing to bring to the conversation.
I think that’s part of the reason close female friendships have been missing from my life.
We never took a break; I never properly broke up with him.
The idea of, “Let’s break up for a year, do some exploring and then touch base,” has always scared me. What if, during that time, one of us found another person? I like the idea of loyalty, and I don’t want to share love.